No bueno!

Ugh I am miserable! Since I've been a bum for the last two days and skipped out on any activity, I knew I had to get moving on Monday. I was supposed to start Week 2 of Running Mate on Sunday but skipped it altogether b/c my right knee was bothering me which is often does. It wasn't too bad today really until I walked downstairs to the garage to start my workout. It's had all damn day to act up and yet it of course waits until it's time for me to work out. I decided to just ignore it and truck on.
Bad. Bad. Idea. Now it just feels as if someone bashed me on the inside of my knee with a sledgehammer. And that's after icing it, an 800 of motrin, and wrapping it with a heating pad. Stairs are just pure hell. I had been downstairs watching some TV and elevating it with heat, decided to come back upstairs to get ready for bed, only to realize when I got up here, that I left my blanket downstairs. It's the blanket John got me for Christmas and seriously the warmest thing ever! I don't use anything else anymore and no matter how cold it gets-this blanket keeps me toasty warm! I think it's the reason I fell asleep on the couch last night watching a movie I usually love (Shooter). I was wrapped up in that thing like a Snuggie and the next thing I know, I'm nearly coming off the couch when John broke out the Magic Bullet to make a smoothie. For about a milisecond, I almost said to hell with it and it can just stay downstairs but I know how I am with blankets and things of the sort and once I get attached to one-I have to have it in order to sleep. So back downstairs I went, one painful step at a time. Sleeping on the couch crossed my mind momentarily, but of course I left my phone (aka-the alarm clock) back upstairs. Clearly I just can't win.

On the bright side of things, I did manage to finish my workout. The breathing wasn't the biggest issue really, which ordinarily I would have been excited about if I wasn't reminded every time my right foot hit the treadmill about that nagging little knee issue. Week 2 of Running Mate is:

5 minute warm up walk (according to the time on my treadmill, it was more like 4:30?)
2.30 min jog
2.30 min walk
2.30 min jog
2.30 min walk
2.30 min jog
2.30 min walk
2.30 min jog
5 min cool down walk

I've noticed when looking over my log that I do much better when I follow the plan to my own music. So I think I'll write it out and plug in the times to start each jog and walk, and tape it to the treadmill. I definitely need to print out some motivational pictures to tape up to put on the wall in front of the treadmill. I stare at the same blank space every single time. Boooooooooooring. I actually did print out a lovely little collage of Mr. Henry Rollins (there's nothing more motivating than that fine fine work of art of a man!) but the printer decided to rebel and spit out the photo paper, not printing anything on it-and print it out on regular paper. Which in turn used up my magenta ink and I just haven't replaced the cartridge yet. On my list for Tuesday's activities!

Enough of all that. Hopefully with some rest tonight, I can manage to do some walking at the track on Tuesday. We shall see.

Chance got his report card Monday. I'm very proud of him! Last time he had all S and S+'s for behavior. This time he even got some O's! Which are "outstanding", so that was awesome to see. Really didn't see much of a change with his academic stuff, but he had already completed pretty much everything in Stage 1 and Stage 2 when Mrs Lawson did his first report card. So looking at it now, it's like he hasn't progressed nearly at all from last time which came as a bit of a shock to me, so it makes me wonder how thorough she was when she did the report cards this time around. Some of the things on there that were unmarked, I know he can do. On the physical education section-he's completed everything in Stage 1, 2, 3, and 4! Why am I not surprised?
His teacher is sending homework home now. You would think hearing me complain about all the homework I had last semester and how much time I spent as a slave to schoolwork-he would hate it, but he was literally jumping up and down excited today when we picked him up from school telling us about his homework. Of course when I made him do over a good portion of it for being sloppy-he might have changed his tune a little but he'll get over it. He'll thank me later when his table in class racks up points for good homework.

Alright, it's off to bed I go. Not really sure what's on the Tuesday agenda. I need to go to school and scout out my books and get the isbn's but ugh. It would be nice if the financial aid would hurry itself up and make it's way into my account so I can buy said books. Since Monday is a holiday, I would imagine it would go in there Friday? I'm really hoping so. I would rather not use our personal funds to have to buy the stupid things like last time.

Activity Log for Jan 3rd-Jan10th

While I am keeping track of my food as well, I think for now I'll just put in my activity.

Sunday, Jan 3rd-
Week 1 of Running Mate, 35 mins on treadmill 1.5 mi

Monday, Jan 4th
3 mile walk at the track

Tuesday, Jan 5th
3 mile walk at the track
Week 1 of Running Mate, 30 mins on treadmill 1.5 mi

Wednesday, Jan 6th
1 mile walk on treadmill
6 miles on bike

Thursday, Jan 7th
Week 1 Running Mate, 31 mins on treadmill 1.75 mi

Friday, Jan 8th
Week 1 Running Mate, 28 mins on treadmill 1.5 mi

Saturday, Jan 9th
No activity as we went out and made it home too late

Sunday, Jan 10th
No activity

Thursday Jan, 7th

Another day down. Haven't touched a scale. Proud of myself for that. It's actually a good feeling knowing that I am doing this a reason other than weight loss. Managed to keep up some form of exercise every day this week. Yesterday I met up with Anna at the gym on post to do mainly weights. However, we walked around the gym looking for the weight machines and only saw free weights. So we ended up doing 1 mile on the treadmill and 6 miles on the bike, and a whole lot of talking lol. It wasn't until we were sitting in the lobby area enjoying a smoothie and what did I see? The weight machine room. Imagine that! Oh well. At least now I know.

I don't know if it's a detox thing since i'm not eating crap or what but good lord I feel like I have a case of roid rage. The first person to even ask if I could be pregnant will end up stabbed. Chance has had a really horrible attitude since he started back to school on Monday. He does fine at school and karate, but he comes home so whiny and I just can't deal with him. He actually drove me to the point of going to bed at 6pm the other night.
So glad we're going to go out Saturday without him. It's much needed.

Tonight they are calling for snow. Of course it will probably be a good snow since Chance is back at school but hopefully it's not too good to keep us from going out Saturday. That's about how my luck works.

Tuition was paid today. Which means my lovely vacation from school will be coming to an end in just about a week and a half. Damn, damn, damn! This full time school business is no joke and I'm just going to a community college. I mean maybe if I didn't feel the need to overachieve, I wouldn't feel so overwhelmed-but I know the minute I start letting myself slip the tiniest bit...helloooooooo snowball effect!
Hopefully I can handle it all while keeping up the workout schedule. I have an hour and a half between two of my classes on Tues and Thurs, so I am hoping to use that time to walk oooooooor maybe even run? Although I am not sure the people in my last two classes wouldn't appreciate that very much. I only have one class on MWF and it's early in the morning so my plan on those days is to hit the gym as soon as class is over for a couple of hours which would leave me plenty of time to walk the track hopefully and pick up Chance on time. That's the plan anyway.

I talked to my mom tonight and she told me she was going to the doctor tomorrow to get help to quit smoking. This is a huge thing. My dad quit after his heart attack which I had hoped would be the motivation for her to stop as well but she hasn't. So I am really really hoping this helps her. It's been a hot button issue between her and I for YEARS. So we'll see how that goes. I know it's hard for her, but she's never made an honest effort and that's all I have been begging her to do for years is to just TRY.

Alright time to wrap this up and get my azz on the treadmill. I only have today and Saturday to do Week 1 on the Running Mate program and then on Sunday I am *supposed* to start Week 2. Eeek! Tuesday it did seem easier but I was still happy to be finished, we'll see how today goes.

The week so far

It's only Tuesday but I am feeling like I have accomplished something. Thanks to the help of awesome friends, I've found some motivation finally. I'm keeping a journal of my eating habits and working out. It's not one of those things where I count every calorie by any means, but I just list what I had for breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks etc. John's doing the six small meals a day thing which I have a hard time keeping up with. I know it's the best way to boost your metabolism but I feel like I am eating every time I turn around. So I am sticking to three meals for now and if I think about it, I'll grab a snack here and there. I think the hardest thing for me is not eating after 7pm. I'm such a late night kind of person, that this part just sucks big time. But luckily the downstairs stays so much colder than upstairs, I've just moved my comp up stairs and I try to hang out more in the bedroom to keep some distance between myself and the kitchen. So far I haven't eaten after 7pm but I was having the urge to the other night. I knew I wasn't hungry, but just wanted something anyway. Managed to ignore it by staying upstairs and reading.
Sunday I started back on the Running Mate program. I did it for the 27 minutes it has you do and then an extra 8 minutes just walking. So 35 mins total on the treadmill. Monday I walked 3 miles with Lisa. Didn't have the energy to run last night plus I wanted to put a day in between my runs per the suggestion of the Running Mate creator. So today I am due to run which I plan on doing as soon as I finish this. Did another 3 mile walk this morning with Lisa and her friend. Hopefully by the end of the day, I will be up to 10 miles just since Sunday. Tomorrow I am starting back to the gym! Should be interesting.

Hi-ho-hi-ho, it's off to the garage I go!

Workout Playlist!

Yeah! I made up a nice playlist today to help me keep trucking along in the fitness department. Notice how I said "fitness" there instead of "weight loss"? Yes well that is because I have finally decided that I don't give two shits anymore if I lose weight. I don't even want to think about all of the time I have spent stressing myself out over the size of my ass, how my jeans no longer fit, blah blah blah. So instead I am taking a page from the Nike ads and I'm gonna "just do it". No this is not a New Years Resolution. I haven't weighed myself in a few months so I guess I'll record my weight on the Wii, not look at it when it does it and just have it in there. I'll let my clothes do the talking and not the stupid scale. I used to get scale obsessed and that's not a good obsession to have. So no scale for me. If I decide to weigh myself, it will be monthly.

Anyways, the key to working out for me is a reliable gym partner and MUSIC!!!! Rather than have to keep the Zune in hand at all times and skip over the more lame, not workout friendly songs-I made up a playlist.

Here it is and I'm open to suggestions:

Punkb*tch-3OH!3
Don't Trust Me-3OH!3
Chokechain-3OH!3
I'm not your Boyfriend Baby-3OH!3
I can't do it Alone-3OH!3
Starstrukk-3OH!3
Richman-3OH!3
Photofinish-3OH!3
Holler Til You Pass Out-3OH!3
Electroshock-3OH!3
War, What is it Good For- Bone Thugs w/Henry Rollins
Lose it-Cartel
Champagne-Cavo
Go Away-Cold
Busy Child-The Crystal Method
Trip Like I Do-The Crystal Method
Mother-Danzig
My Own Summer-Deftones
Be Quiet and Drive -Deftones
Voices-Disturbed
Stupify-Disturbed
Down with the Sickness-Disturbed
Move it-Dope
Debonaire-Dope
B*tch-Dope
Quicksand-Finger Eleven
Lollipop-Framing Hanley
I Get Off-Halestorm
Uprising-Muse
Your Signs-Nonpoint
Backup-Nonpoint
Gone Away-Offspring
Gotta Get Away-Offspring
Self Esteem-Offspring
All We Know-Paramore
That's what You Get-Paramore
Smack my B*tch Up-Prodigy
Psycho-Puddle of Mudd
Bulls on Parade-RATM
Down Rodeo-RATM
Mexican Rap-Rehab
Wht do u wnt frm me-Rehab
Bump-Rehab
Saviour-Rise Against
Ass Shaker-RJA
Starve-Rollins Band
Liar-Rollins Band
Home-Sevendust
Denial-Sevendust
Licking Cream-Sevendust
Bender-Sevendust
Devour-Shinedown
Sound Of Madness-Shinedown
Matter of Faith-Sick Speed
Here I Stand-Sick Speed
Get 'em out of Here-Sprung Monkey
Down and Out-Tantric
Pain-Three Days Grace
Riot-Three Days Grace
Laughing Man-Tony Iommi w/Henry Rollins
Stinkfist-Tool
Forty six & 2-Tool
Moses-entire album
Get Back-Zebrahead


More will be added I'm sure, but I threw that together in about 10 minutes. Alright, time to shower and then settle down to finish this book I'm reading.